Something New

A new journey stands before me, and as I stand at the precipice of the unknown I cannot help but feeling excited. I am a woman whose four children are now adults living their own lives, creating their own stories. I have spent the last 25 years of my life, almost my entire adulthood, being someone's mother and enveloping myself in all that it means to be a good one. So....now what? What comes after our children have grown? Who do we become when 'Mother' has been our calling, an all-encompassing passion? 

I always thought I would be devastated when my kids were grown. That I would somehow forget my true north because my children were always my compasses and guides. I wondered sporadically if I would I drown in an ocean of purposelessness. I mean, I was a homeschooling stay-at-home mama whose family moved around a lot. If that doesn't create some type of vacuum and single-mindedness of sole focus, I don't know what does. 

And yet...while I was sad at certain points, and I did worry about what was to become of my life - who would I be now that 'mother' was no longer my full-time role? When the point of release finally came and Elizabeth graduated high school and turned 19 a few months later, I didn't lose hope that there was nothing else left of value to accomplish in my life.

 In fact, the opposite has become true. A whole future of possibilities opened up before me. In fact, my possibilities seem limitless. (It helps that I have an incredibly amazing husband who says that he considers me retired because I successfully raised and educated four amazing humans, and that I can pursue anything I want to - or nothing at all.)

I would love to share my journey with you. I hope you'll come along for the ride as I am so curious about what the future holds in this new chapter of life.